Walking Behind My Dad

Kelli Ann - angel2

Kelli Ann - angel2

My dad has Alzheimer’s or so we are told. It came on suddenly — sudden onset. Is that Alzheimer’s? I don’t know, but they, the medical powers that be, say so.

I am visiting Dad at his home this week in Virginia. Over the past year on the phone, his decline has been quite apparent. As he sits in front of me, I see a once robust man now quite frail and elderly.

Hey Dad, I remember the days when you had dark hair. I remember when you walked with your big strides along the beaches of Lake Huron, your skin tanned by the hot summer sun. I still hear your voice booming as you called after us kids to listen to you when we were misbehaving. I have many memories of you sitting at the kitchen table with all the grandkids in rapt attention as you spoke of the secrets of the universe.

“Remember the days of old, consider the years of generations past. Ask your father, he will inform you, your elders, they will tell you.” (Deuteronomy 32:7 NAB)

I miss the simple things, like you reserving the plane ticket for me to come down for a visit. I remember us sight-seeing in the Chesapeake Bay area of Virginia, where you live. I remember many things, and they are all just that: memories.

And now, I still think it odd that I find myself walking behind you, when you are not aware that I am there, to make sure you don’t fall and keep steady on your feet. This morning, while having my cup of coffee, you sat down next to me, looked at me, and attempted to button the top part of your shirt, with no success. You then started to play with the buttons of your cuff links on your sleeves. I watched you for a brief moment, with a million thoughts running through my mind … the most prominent one being, “I am going to button my dad’s shirt, because he is no longer able”. There was no emotion to that thought, just a subtle feeling of transitional shock.

People say you become your parents’ parent at some point in time. I am a baby boomer become sandwich generation. Last year my mother died very quickly of pancreatic cancer. This year my father is mostly healthy physically, yet lingers mentally, with a regressing backwards to a younger time and place.

“My son, be steadfast in honoring your father; do not grieve him as long as he lives. Even if his mind fails, be considerate of him; do not revile him because you are in your prime.” (Sirach 3:12-13 NAB)

Dad, I know you can hear me when I talk to you but sometimes I wonder how much of you is still aware. Where are you, Dad, inside of that body of yours? Is part of you asleep, your spirit dulled by the ravages of your disease? And now, walking beside you wondering if your next step will take you stumbling, I can’t help ponder the frailty of life and the journey we all must take. Our path may be short or may be a long one but the end result is always the same.

“What profit have we from all the toil which we toil at under the sun? One generation departs and another generation comes, but the world forever stays.” (Ecclesiastes 1:3-4 NAB)

Pondering and contemplating my thoughts turn toward God and the end of life; mine and yours Dad, and also that of all of my loved ones. Do we ever truly think about these things, our final destination? Where has our life taken us and what choices have we made in order to find ourselves where we are? Have we found the peace we seek?

Dad, your presence before me brings out many thoughts. I didn’t expect this. I assumed I was coming here for a visit with a different, though unspoken, outcome. So it is true … God uses many people, things, and situations to turn us towards our ultimate goal, Him.

IMG_0261  Thank you, Dad. I love you.

   “Honor your father and your mother, that you may have a long life in the land the      Lord your God is giving you.” (Exodus 20:12)

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8 thoughts on “Walking Behind My Dad”

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  2. SnowCherryBlossoms

    I’ve dealt with 3 cases of Alzheimer disease in my life so far, 3 out of 4 Grandparents were diagnosed with it and now possibly my mother has it. I found one way to reach them at their worst time toward the end and that way is Love, they never stopped responding to love and I think this was a miracle. A smile and a hug always was responded to. God is so good. I really loved your story, it brought back painful but good memories, thank you.

  3. Lisa –

    Has your immortal soul been eased into a heretic state against … God’s must know Catholic Dogma, Dogma which you have never seen ?

    Has this fact placed you outside of God’s Catholic Church … which uncorrected causes the loss of your soul ?

    Is there a Catholic Dogma remedy … for re-entering the Catholic Church ?

    Answer: The answer to all three questions is … yes. Please continue.

    You have been *profoundly* deceived …

    Council of Florence, Session 8, 22 Nov 1439 — infallible Source of Dogma >
    “Whoever wills to be saved, before all things it is necessary that he holds the Catholic faith. Unless a person keeps this faith whole and undefiled, without doubt he shall perish eternally.”

    You must believe the Catholic Dogma to be in the Church … Dogma you have *never* seen.

    Site > http://www.Immaculata-one.com … infallible Dogma throughout.

    The … Catholic Sources of Dogma … is the must know Faith. It is not “Bible interpretation”.
    The … Catholic Sources of Dogma … is the must know Faith. It is not “Bible interpretation”.
    The … Catholic Sources of Dogma … is the must know Faith. It is not “Bible interpretation”.

    The Catholic Faith *is not* Bible interpretation … it is the infallible Sources of Dogma (of the Pope in union with the Bishops of the world). The Catholic Church didn’t even define the Bible’s New Testament Canon until 397 A.D. at the Council of Carthage.

    Second Council of Constantinople, 553 A.D. — Ex-Cathedra Dogma >
    “The heretic, even though he has not been condemned formally by any individual, in reality brings anathema on himself, having cut himself off from the way of truth by his heresy.”

    – – – – – – – – – –

    Can a group which enforces the opposite, the opposite, and the opposite of the Catholic unchangeable Dogma be the Catholic Church?

    No … it cannot possibly be the Catholic Church … and promotion of the opposite of the Catholic Dogma is exactly what the vatican-2 heretic cult does … and has been doing since it’s founding on 8 December 1965 at the Vatican.

    The founding documents of the vatican-2 heretic cult … the “vatican-2 council”
    documents … have well over 200 heresies *against* prior defined unchangeable Dogma
    … 50 listed at > http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.html

    Every (apparent) bishop at the “council” approved the mountain of heresy, which caused their automatic excommunication … automatic excommunication Dogma listed > http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.2.html

    Photographic proof … of heresy and apostasy by people … dressed up like Catholic Bishops …

    http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.html and http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.6.1.html
    http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.6.2.html and http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.7.1.html
    http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.7.2.html and http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_12.10.1.html

    The vatican-2 heresy does not have the Office of the Papacy … only the Catholic Church has the Office of the Papacy.

    The … Gates of Hell scripture … has nothing to do with the Papacy … Dogma listed > http://www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.3.html

    The Dogma cannot “change” or be “reversed” … God does not “change”.

    – – – – – – – – – –

    Section 12 > Anti-Christ vatican-2 heresies (50 listed) … followed by many Catholic corrections.

    Sections 13 and 13.1 > Photographic *proof* of heresy at the Vatican. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.html)

    Because of … the Catholic Dogma on automatic excommunication for heresy or for physical
    participation in a heretic cult (such as the v-2 cult) …

    … we were all placed, body and soul, *outside* of Christianity (the Catholic Church) on 8
    December 1965 … the close date of the “council”.

    Sections 13.2 and 13.2.2 > Catholic Dogma on automatic excommunication for heresy or participating in a heretic cult such as … “vatican-2”, “lutheran”, “methodist”, “evangelical”, etc. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.2.html) (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.2.2.html)

    Section 107 > St. Athanasius (died 373 A.D.) … “Even if the Church were reduced to a handful …” – – during the “arian” heresy … we are there again, but worse.


    Section 13.3 > Matthew 16:18, Gates of Hell scripture … is *not* about the Office of the Papacy … four Dogmatic Councils defined it … that heresy will not cause the Dogma to disappear. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.3.html)

    Section 13.4 > The vatican-2 heretic cult does not have the Office of the Papacy only the Catholic Church has the Papacy. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.4.html)

    Section 13.6 > The Catholic Dogma on Jurisdiction and Automatic Excommunication for heresy define that … God has allowed Catholic Jurisdiction … for Mass and Confession to disappear from the world.
    There is no such thing as Catholic Mass outside of the Catholic Church. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_13.6.html)

    Non-Catholic heresies such as “vatican-2”, “sspx”, “sspv”, “cmri”, etc. … do not have
    Catholic Mass.

    Section 19.1 > Dogma on Abjuration for *re-entering* Christianity (the Catholic Church) … after being automatically excommunicated. A Formal Abjuration is provided here also. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_19.1.html)

    Section 10.2 > Returning to a state of grace, in places and times when Confession is not available, like now. (www.Immaculata-one.com/section_10.2.html)

    – – – – – – – – – –

    Second Council of Constantinople, 553 A.D. — infallible Source of Dogma >
    “The heretic, even though he has not been condemned formally by any
    individual, in reality brings anathema on himself, having cut himself off from
    the way of truth by his heresy.”

    Blessed John Eudes, died 1680 >
    “The greatest evil existing today is heresy, an infernal rage which hurls countless
    souls into eternal damnation.”

    Everything you must know, believe, and do to get to Heaven is on > > http://www.Immaculata-one.com.

    Our Lady of Conquest
    Pray for us

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